I’m back from living in my friend’s summerhouse for a few days, so I’ll be updating and answering your asks in a short while again. I didn’t have the opportunity to update while there, therefore the short inactivity. I haven’t been gone for long but I’ve missed you all nevertheless. x
PS. Now that school is starting again, I won’t be going away at all and I will be updating every day as usual as well, since I’ll have the time for it.
Athletes’ torment of Harris and Klebold personally also was a factor. This past year, they and friend Brooks Brown were outside school when a carload of athletes, wearing their trademark white caps, threw a bottle at them, which shattered at their feet. Brown recalled Klebold saying, “Don’t worry, man, it happens all the time.”
"The state wrestling champ was regularly permitted to park his $100,000 Hummer all day in a 15-minute space. A football player was allowed to tease a girl about her breasts in class without fear of retribution by his teacher, also the boy’s coach. The sports trophies were showcased in the front hall - the artwork, down a back corridor. Columbine High School is a culture where initiation rituals meant upperclass wrestlers twisted the nipples of freshman wrestlers until they turned purple and tennis players sent hard volleys to younger teammates’ backsides. Sports pages in the yearbook were in color, a national debating team and other clubs in black and white. The homecoming king was a football player on probation for burglary. All of it angered and oppressed Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, leading to the April day when they staged their murderous rampage here, killing 13 and wounding 21.
Columbine may be no different from thousands of high schools in glorifying athletes. But in the weeks since one of the worst school shootings in history, every aspect of what had seemed “normal” is now being reexamined. Increasingly, as parents and students replay images of life at Columbine, they are freeze-framing on injustices suffered at the hands of athletes, wondering aloud why almost no one - not teachers, not administrators, not coaches, not most students, not parents - took the problem seriously. No one thinks the high tolerance for athletic mischief explains away or excuses the two boys’ horrific actions. But some parents and students believe a schoolwide indulgence of certain jocks - their criminal convictions, physical abuse, sexual and racial bullying - intensified the killers’ feelings of powerlessness and galvanized their fantasies of revenge.
It was clear in the first hours after the shootings that vengeance against athletes was a preoccupation of the two killers. Harris and Klebold began firing with the words “All the jocks stand up.” They barked that “anybody with a white hat or a shirt with a sports emblem on it is dead.” But in the two months since that day, as pundits and politicians searched for an explanation of why, the national conversation moved away from those words, and even outside the walls of the school completely. It turned to the boys’ families, where no clues have surfaced, to the mental illness of Harris - he was on antidepressants - to video games, to violent movies, to guns, which currently preoccupy Congress.
Through their mourning and anguish, many parents and students have made a more difficult turn inward, to the culture of Columbine and the aspects of it that may have provoked two angry boys to such aggression.”
- The Washington Post.
Your blog has really made me think of a career in criminal psychology. You helped my personal interest with these topics flourish. Thank you. xx
Oh my, that’s great! I’m so happy to hear that I’ve helped you on your journey and that I’ve made you think about working with this in the future. A career in criminal psychology is not only extremely interesting but also very rewarding and gives you a whole new, rich perspective of the world and the people around you. Hearing that you’re considering working in that area is great. I wish you all the best and I’ll be happy to hear from you again sometime and see where you stand by then. You’re more than welcome, darling. x
Eric explaining what some of his favorite songs by KMFDM mean to him.
1. Son of a Gun.
3. Stray Bullet.
He wasn’t a Columbine Rebel, he was just a rebel.
In their violent death, many see Eric as the leader. He was the author of the journal laying out the deadly plot, the master of the Web site filled with venomous threats. A sarcastic loudmouth, Eric was always the first to volunteer to read his personal essays in class, quick to make fun of a guest speaker; Dylan was shy, usually talking only to Eric in class.
But in life, Eric often copied Dylan, Devon Adams said. Dylan started working at Blackjack, and soon Eric was filling out a job application. Dylan put a sticker on his car showing his devotion to the German band Rammstein, and days later a sticker turned up on Eric’s Honda Prelude. (x)
I bought Dave Cullen's book and don't know what to do with it now lmao. Should I read it but take everything with a grain of salt? Or not even bother?
Aww, damn. That’s a shame. Do you have any chance to return it?
I would say that the only time reading Dave Cullen’s book is acceptable is when reading it to point out every single lie in it. Just reading it to educate yourself on the case doesn’t work as it doesn’t consist of information on Columbine; but it would however be pretty nice for us to have a complete list of lies from that book on tumblr or wherever. Take it with a bathtub of salt and try not to get too annoyed and you’ll probably be fine, dear. If you want to read it just to read it, then well - that’s your time and you’re free to do whatever you want with it!
I dislike it because it consists solely of lies. He has overlooked tons of official documents and pieces of evidence on the case just to make it appear like he wants it to appear. Dave Cullen is a journalist and a journalist only - not an author, not a psychologist, not a criminologist, not a detective and not an expert on the case. He does not have any knowledge of anything surrounding Columbine and simply does what journalists always do - he lies to create a juicy story. However, lying to make a juicy story isn’t very desirable when it comes to a crime book.
My dear friend Elsa on tumblr has made a list of some of the lies he wrote down in that book here, if you’re interested in reading some of the bullshit he’s tried to make us believe. :)
Can you explain the two sides of eric? I mean the soft side with his friends and the other nasty side, please? btw I love your blog (forgive my grammar i'm spanish)
First of all: thank you so much, dearie. I’m really glad you like the blog. And your English is perfectly fine, so don’t worry about it. x
Eric was a sensitive, mentally unstable boy who as a whole was a very nice and caring person. Unfortunately, he didn’t get the help he needed and therefore he went through with doing an incredibly horrible thing because of his mental illness taking over his mind completely. When he was with his friends or just anyone he could be himself around, he was the Eric he for the most part of his life was: a caring, nice, trustworthy and funny guy who did anything and everything for the ones he cared about and longed for somebody (a girlfriend) who loved him and made him feel needed. As time passed by and he became more and more mentally unstable because of the circumstances he faced (bullying, loneliness, not being accepted etc), he started developing and creating another side of him, the side that would come to go through with a school massacre. This side showed itself more and more, although the “nice” Eric was always there. We all have different sides of ourselves, which is perfectly normal, but depending on the circumstances, one of the sides can “take over” more or less. If we are healthy, feel accepted, are mentally stable, have good friends and generally just are happy with our lives and current situations, we will probably mostly be pretty nice people. Eric however was in a situation that affected his personality negatively - he was mentally unstable, depressed, lonely, bullied, unaccepted, suffered from low self-esteem etc, and he became more of the “bad” Eric (although I don’t see him as “bad”, I use that word to make it more clear), and that side showed itself more. So on the inside he was still the nice, sensitive guy he always was but his mental health problems made him act out in bad ways at times. I hope this answered your question.
Definitely! I’d recommend reading No Easy Answers by Brooks Brown and Columbine: A True Crime Story by Jeff Kass. Both of those books are great and give great insight and information on the case, but in slightly different ways. Brooks Brown was friends with Eric and Dylan, so he provides the readers with inside information, as he obviously knows more about them than you can learn by just researching the case. It gives great insight on Eric and Dylan (mostly Dylan, as Brooks grew up with him) and their lives, on the school they went to, the bullying and just the events in their lives that made them go through with the massacre. Jeff Kass on the other hand has a more informative book on the case as a whole and has more of a factual book. He has obviously researched Columbine a whole lot and provides the reader with reliable information that makes you understand the case more, plus loads of facts that you need to know about Columbine to understand it. So I’d recommend those two books to anyone interested in some Columbine-reading!
Are you swedish or do you just live there? Because Im from Sweden and your english is waay to good for a swedish person!
I am born and raised in Sweden actually, haha! But thank you for the compliment, dear; I guess I just have a way with learning new languages. x
(Kul att träffa en svensk läsare, förresten!)